Poetry Drives You

Is it meant to duel upon I and match its title? Suddenly land on one‘s life like a flight Wonder filled, became with no measurement Waked not without her name recall Many said those be the symptoms of the fall Fall? Yes a quad letter fall Regret, could not, for it was quite visible Total display seemed unable    Consider it being the last…to her Setting the beginning of a heart that suffer Or the end of a mind that thinks no further My last…to her will match no other Besides being commonly about love Lost and gained hopes defined I Unreciprocation crashes my feeling source Cannot sustain no further such force Yet, perhaps be the reason of one’s endurance For what is real loses not value My last…to her Be the beginning of many to come The only end be when death us overcome Destroy the flesh of the soul which cannot overtake Let all the ends in life the beginning trigger. 11 May 2008

I thought deeply about something to tell you Yet my wandering heart and mind got not ideas And sounded as if one could just turn away and leave I spent a bit more in thoughts When finally my heart and mind replied “You don’t need to create a pleasant sound To the ears that will please the heart Just bear in mind, whatever affection Be in your heart in approval with your mind It is what matters” Not the ability to express it in beautiful speech For the sense be the same No matter style or rhyme Oh! Be sure I express my deepest sentiments Which only you depict its meaning I fought with my mind and heart Saw no need to summarise these words to a single For you know it better than none on earth For people shouldn’t suffer, seek nor beg for it Just live. For what is meant to be shall be No matter the world’s course. 18 April 2008

They said I stood not a chance As if reading her brain choice Do they inhabit within her heart? So why judge invisible feelings Displayed at one’s own will Its accuracy known by only two Wander without a guiding star you will Trying to eye measure the heart Whose mystery forever a mystery despite affirmations Let me not hear nor follow their statements Food to hope their own use Better regret from a statement from the source For while this be the flesh world lived once The judge, be one. 10 April 2008

I could not see her physically Reasons why one cannot say I miss her, absently present I say my vows she can virtually hear Yet I saw not if pleased she was Only wonder if she still pictures my young wrinkles Sorrow brides to one’s heart while her absence Kept mind of her in consolation Wrote the mind speech the paper gladly held Minded not my contents constitution Matched every single word to my intuition For they shall match her wise evaluation Also continue ceaseless like evolution Oh! Let me reciprocate my heart to thee Shall not waste the clicks towards dark today For multitude attract daily Giving no choice option, allowing no delay Washing any survival hope away Flourish; flourish to dark one day lay Together flourish my heart with no delay Tough darkened, shall mean more after For it was genuine, forever shall be The brain spoke its speech The heart analyzed the pitch Both got to a sense It is deep and shall leave an everlasting scar Quad letter scar meaning infinite None...

I thought on my thoughts hopelessly She, I said to love Thanks, had replied she A heavy dark cloud on me she placed Without north I walked No, yes? I wonder her reply Powerlessly remained I on my ill silence Like a stone, by man whenever he wants, Placed and there it remains Talk back, it won’t surely Remain there forever until by man moved Driven by hope, silent remain Live my before expecting to experience my after Knowing a thin line separates them Yet keep us widely apart An uncovered mystery, kept covered It revelation puzzling is Short one piece, short the whole meaning Discover one, question mark adding Maybe it has no answer, do it? Or Just agreement between the odds Should I read her black twin’s diary? Or Directly ask her about her? Maybe, like her twin, secretive she is Keeping her answers for her Well, before I ask her if she… I will ask my heart if I… After that I will ask her: What before I thought to ask after Then her answer mine also will be Only then; Before will...

Breath in, breath out, ok There it goes. I just want to say I … What is wrong? Is she so hypnotic? Split it out, I tried Did it once, reply was appreciation Breath in, breath out Should I on my knees lie? Prepare a speech; forget about the world’s presence Instead loudly affirm to it that I … Breath in, breath out Grown like an exponential sequence it had Lock it in me I tried with no success Explosively released itself Is it invisible? Maybe colourless and without matter made Though it material is not It comes from the heart Called love Hopefully I do express it no matter how. 7 August 2007

I tried not to know you Vaguely I could not achieve As for the sadness of you knowing My peace and virtue Once knowing you, came my virtue Together with it came my vice Opposing feelings made me try to forget you But the mind did not lose track off Nor a single bend and spot of yours Failing to forget, tried not at you look But, could still see you Virtually blinded by the intensity of your beauty’s light My closed eyes could depict Eyes, mind, by you hypnotized Maybe my ears can still obey my command I told them to listen not at you They ruffle did it, with no success As your voice gently exploded into them So, I quit Can one fight what he can’t beat? Leave or drop what at him tied is? Surrender not to be hurt I do Love, who make me suffer because it is real. 24 April 2007

Look at that panic screaming lady A cat stole her bag Her tone ignored is, though No one for no one cares Look at that priest He seems to be respectful Tomorrow you will hear that In a sex crime he involved was Some hide guns under the bible One day a war they shall start Look at that man He is wearing a nice suit Driving and talking at the latest car and phone It seems fair fortune, yet What you don’t know is that He is dealing drugs and planning his next crime While you look at him at phone speaking Don’t be frustrated by the people outside For those who see face, don’t see heart The world is sinking, just don’t sink with it Rhythm, rhyming, not my aim Messaging, understanding, my words duty Deeply travel on them, depict knowledge And wisely it use For those who wisely live shall be Forever unforgotten.

At the prescribed divine location Meant to, fulfilling abstract Doubt not it was His act Empty minded looking for no one Empty minded found someone Our forward selves met Moonlike glimmering they went Continuous light they spent Dark spark temporarily neutralized Dejavu! I can’t believe my pearls Equally her hers Speechless over intense wonder I remained So remained my surround Commonly the interrogative speech developed Wake up! Environmental sound heard It murmured “yes…is she…your pearls are fair” What said I, queer remained Yet my pearls recovered its dark side My hands moved round touching her back So, on mine hers did. Chicks on shoulders Her smile stood queenly upon her face Kingly raised mine has if it was my throne Should our smiles bearer meet as we met? Inner question She shall answer when we again meet Either on the flesh or soul world event Only then we shall meet as we met. March 2008

Words can express no worth to such rarity Nor sound its artistic authority Colour fills its intense beauty She comes, eliminates mystery Or, was it to add to the pitch A rare portrait, millions wish Rare paint anointment increases its concurrence Ceaseless strong strife held men for its value; Upon their hands, consequently their heart its safe A rare portrait upon a neck Once left to dry for nine months Perhaps seven Highly located upon a unique flesh stand It flows hot vitalizing the portrait Its content forever prevail prevented from dark Shall flow cold and give no please to dark For dark deserve not a rarity For its coldness everlasting rarity award will Then shall be truly a shooting star Realize its majesticy? Shall fear no dark to its encounter A rare portrait upon a neck Men’s but my love It has no owner but a keeper Remains rare, though known forever. 6 March 2008

Knowing that life a path of experiences Revealing differently building up changes About its next event you know nothing Should you try to discover its source? Though my advice contrast with yours will Look for impossible reasons not my will Quit if your life still reasonable for your will For such changes of no source are Empty minded you hardly notice For it gave you no notice Puns took up their turn Shall perhaps mysteriously return The vows on the past reciprocated now forgotten Difficultly and meaninglessly by your mind recovered Maybe was or is the distance Or, should I say what caused the distance Or, should I say what caused the previous event That caused the consecutive Swing your mind back and forth they will From back you said to her “I love you“ To forth you now say “I used to love you” From back you said “You are mine forever and I yours” To forth you affirm that “You were mine and I yours” To back you said, “I shall have no other love besides you” ...

She shown up and changed Changed what? Changed me at all My deeds by her controlled Tried to hide with no success She finds me even in the black Her pearls can see Her presence strengthen my happiness Her absence strengthen the hope that she will show up Her sadness is my fear My surround is deadened by it Hopefully I pray for her healing Once more she shown up and changed Dead environment shall rise to life after her appearance My well being she controls She shown up and changed April 2007

Should I say I love you? Let me try and think why I love her for the simple reason of being alive Her existence keeps mine In adoration I keep her in secret Broken hearts shall come Within the revelation of the same Her happiness his what drives my deeds My evil side is locked up by it And slowly eats me up Yet the fair stronger side keeps me alive Her beauty resembles the whole creation and love itself I think I should not say I love you But the truth is that love for you is within me 13 April 2007

Mortality ability, gratitude of God’s main creation It is and shall be a creation outcome The counting of days towards grave Would there be outcome more grave Hope filled hearts for there are choices Though pecant seeds forever born The killing of brothers by brothers What other worse did our creation? For some do as a form of a hobby Freely deliberated, carelessly We were, are and shall be to blame We held pointless wars forging reasons First to second, early to elder dead lives Shall not place aside the minor biodiversity So we were and will be to blame Some strange sort of heating with known reasons Its outcomes affect harshly the least pioneer Shall they rave against the main? Or, rely on their frail prevention For when destruction comes upon The main trigger shall lie back and forge caring So poor shall blame rich who set poor to blame Killing of fetus years An unborn living life killed raw Guilty conscience shall upon them come When the Judge of judge...